It's the month of October, the 3rd last month of the year. I have always liked year ends and year beginnings, but not really the middle portion. Year ends brings with it the feeling of festivals such as Halloween (fun!), Christmas (presents!), important birthdays (*wink wink*) and of course the countdown, nothing more exciting than knowing that a whole new year is about to begin. Year beginning is about CNY (ang baos!), valentine's day (surprise surprise) and many more stuffs I can't recall right now.

This year is a little different. I became jobless in the middle of the year and had a lot of time on my hand then. With it, I travelled twice, did some things that I never would have done and picked up on hobbies that have always interest me but I couldn't find the time to pursue. It was a really nice period of doing what I enjoyed and spending time with important people, other than facing the only stress which is looking for jobs. I have sent so many applications that I lost count. The long wait for a reply, and the continuous rejections that I received. Many people asked if I would have done the same thing and still quit if I knew that I was going to be jobless for so long. I thought about it, and I did not regret what I did. I wasn't happy in my previous job, and if not for the 3 months break, my unhappiness would have still persisted. Imagine the sustained unhappiness, yuck!

Then a break when there was an opening for a position, which is somewhat related to my field of study, and I gave it a shot. A relatively new place with a relatively new group of workforce, I should be fitting nicely in. But...I'm not sure I do. The physical expectation of the job is intense. Of course I still have some time to adapt and decide if I really like the job, but it's so sad that I get this uncertain feeling right at the start of the job =( I think the best way to know if I am suitable for a job, is to ask myself if I want and can see myself doing the same thing 5 - 10 years down the road, using a senior job scope as a comparison. I really don't know man.

Now, let's focus on the recent event: halloween horror night. Yep, my aunt gave me tickets to this year's event and it was a VIP ticket! Kinda cool that we got the VIP treatment and we could just skip the queue and go straight into a vip holding room and get free drinks and food! Sadly, we ate so full for our dinner because we were afraid that we would become hungry, and we couldn't eat anymore at the holding area *sian*. So I just stood around and drank some drinks around people we all didn't know. The treatment also came with a goody bag which included a skeleton head cup, free photos and...our tix were express ones! The night just got better and better =D For that night, I finally understood how it felt to be treated like a mini rock star.

And back to reality the next morning.


PLOT TWIST! PLOT TWIST! PLOT TWIST!