Ever since my first volunteer work, I can't rmb any once have I felt unhappy doing it. I believe that people who do not have the most are always the ones who appreciate the most - because they've lived the worse, and they know what is it like to have something, to even not have something. It's not everything you have means its good. Sometimes, when you don't have, it's better. Take for example, if you don't have to worry about getting a job you like, if you don't have to face bullying, if you don't have to worry about anything. This may be why I like helping them, cause they appreciate what you've done for them, and it really shows. They are much more sensitive towards others, much more thouhtful when the others don't even bother to think more about what they just blabber out of their mouth or commit an action. And more often than not, they don't expect reciprocation. They are okay with always being there when you want them to, but they don't expect you to be there when they want you to. From another perspective,  it could be because you feel they need and want you there, more than whatever place you could be at. Why would you stay at a place where there is no need of you, and not be at another where whatever you can contribute and help in another persons life. Honestly,  I don't find anything more satisfying than helping people, maybe perhaps doing something arty farty. Sometimes I dunno why I'm doing this, sometimes I dunno why I'm doing anything I'm doing at all. Anyway, its an internal conflict which only I can solve in time to come. Please don't dictate my life, I'm me, not you.

" if you want to do something that you want to hide, perhaps you can spare the extra effort to do it more discretely." - karma's a bitch