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My weekends have been good. So far I’ve managed to do loads of stuffs over them, bringing my lil sis to different cool world iconic places, sliding down ice, sliding down ice with a bumper, catching up on some movies (yay!), getting my movie souvenirs, baking & cooking at my sis new house and realizing my cooking art potential, crashing a baby exhibition (I’ve never seen so many pregnant women and mamas gathered at a location and looking so determined to enter a place before! See what discounts can do to people…), witnessing a dog carnival (so many beautiful dogs!), bringing my parents to experience 18 chefs (but didn’t order their zhao pai cheese baked dish -.-), seeing people swing on bars and jumping onto wooden blocks over and over again, and last but not least, eat good food (yum!). They were all so fun, in contrast to my bleak weekdays, except for having the chance to experience a presentation panelled by a lot of big shots, entering a toxic location geared with what I wear to lab normally, experiencing how the neighbour of a burnt unit will look & smell like and having an eerie incident.

 

It's a new week and the last 1.5 week for April. I dunno if I look forward to what will be coming, but I'm glad that I'll have things to do at least for the next 2 weekends!

 

"Don't ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive" - Howard Thurman

Sometimes, its the choices we make in life that determines who we are. Not the circumstances, but the choices we make during those circumstances. So maybe I'm too stupid to notice before, but now I'm slowly fixing the puzzle together and getting the whole picture. Some people get it really easily, but its difficult for me and its something I have to focus to see. Maybe because I'm too blinded by distractions, too blind to see the truth.

Then there are times you realize people make decisions that contradict what they say, and it adds up to the confusion. How much do you give before its enough? Is it fair that they say another is over protected when the next thing they do is to hold up the shield for that person? They chose to give up their own and spend their time on another before complaining to you that they didn't have time for this, nor that. There's so many other people in the same situation, but I don't see them giving what what they like or maybe love for something they complain so much about. Weird huh.

The past few weeks have been tough with a lot of things going on everywhere. I guess I'm those kind of person who likes to handle one thing at a time. We'll be more focused you see. But things just keep coming one after another. People just tell you to learn how to handle it, but nobody's there to teach or guide. How can we progress like that? It's like they want a cake, and they're only providing the dough. No recipe, no specifics. Maybe the people around me are all chefs, but the thing is, I'm not. I don't even come from a baking school.

Anyway, as my boss just said : life goes on no matter what happens. So just have to grit my teeth and move on.

P.S.Goodness, everything seems to be breaking down on me. My laptop's giving me blank, my new com is unable to load so many sites and my tablet just restarts every other waking (sometimes even sleeping) moment.