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"History repeats itself, first as tragedy, second as farce." - Karl Marx

I haven't been blogging for awhile now, because life's same-old same-old. Now, my life is really like a roller coaster, just that its getting low or lower. When I don't do something, Group A questions me even after countless explanations. . . When I do something, Group B questions me. Group B's questions were still quite ok, until Group A comes in to comment on what I do, telling me how I should do it, what I should do instead. Must something BIG happen to me again before you can let me off your questionings?? I thought it was getting better for awhile now, but just because you don't see it, doesn't mean it isn't happening anymore! Why do you have to question every single bloody thing in my life? Meet this person also say, don't meet this person also say. Never go also say, go already also say. Do this also say, don't do this also say. . . You all make me really don't want to go there anymore, I don't even feel okay there anymore and I have to go there so often. Feels so restricted. On the brighter side of life, I managed to accomplish something in life recently. Although its a small accomplishment, it feels quite good to have done it. mini yay! Anyway, that's all for now.

"Why is it that when one man builds a wall, the next man immediately needs to know what's on the other side?" - George RR Martin

Yesterday, was quite a fun day for me because it was one of the few rare days in manny manny days where I get to do the things I enjoy. The day started with having a simple meal with my mom and little sis. It's been awhile since I went for breakfast with them already, because everyone is so busy with their own lives. The food wasn't nice and the place hot and stuffy, but I am not sure why, I still enjoyed it much better than alot of the other breakfast experience I've had. Then, I finally used my new lappy to play a new map in l4d. It was the first time I played single (well because everyone else is so busy), but it was not too bad. At least it took my mind off thinking too much for people who doesn't appreciate it. Oh well. Next up, I went for volunteering. It was nice, just being there to help people. I wished I had more of these. Next next up, I went to catch a huge blockbuster of the season. It has been quite awhile since I watched any movie and this movie was one of them that I really wanted to watch. It was nice overall and although I fell asleep at a few scenes, I still enjoyed the movie. Been awhile since I can fall asleep so peacefully, and the movie theatres can be a magical place =) Also managed to eat some sweet desserts to end the day!

Anyway, May's here. We're into the fifth month of the year, three days to my exam and two months till the end of my contract. I can't wait!! =D

"Fairy tales only happen in movies" - George Melies. In the past, I always believed that fairy tales can happen in reality too.

I wish there was a restart button for life, because I would really like to press it right now.

I really wish there is someone who has been in my situation that I can talk to and give me some advice.

Can you please show up in my life soon?

Every time I share my troubles with people, they add to my trouble. WTF is wrong with people. I don't have them to turn to when I have work troubles, and I don't have my work to turn to when I have them troubles.

"Be smart. Truth is, when you're down, nobody will be there for you. If people are there, most probably they just want to get you lower. They just want to judge you by their standards. As if you weren't feeling bad enough, they want to reassure you that no one can be trusted. Only a lucky few will have people standing by their side even when they're wrong, just because it'll make the person feel better. So use this as a motivation to push yourself up, and then graciously allow these people to kiss your arse when you've become successful." - anonymous