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Yesterday was my "last day" of work, and today is the first day of my "holiday"! Whee~ =) It's quite a tough decision because there are a lot of factors involved, but I guess it's better to make a decision and make a change instead of complain and yet do nothing about it. It's a small change and some might say quite an impractical one, but it's still a small step nonetheless. The bittersweet feeling, bitter because I realise I'm gonna leave the rare few friends at the workplace and of course I'll be living on null income, but sweet because I am finally free to think and do the things that mattered more to me. Jobs are important because they provide a source of income and sometimes a bit of fulfilment, but when it sucks you dry of energy and happiness to live a fruitful life outside of your job, it's pretty much a signal that it's time to leave.

"The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance" - Alan Watts. Dance? Guess its a sign for Ellen time ;)

Just finished watching a movie, and it made me think about life and everything that has happened. Come to think about it, people worry a lot. Before we were students, our parents have to worry about getting us into a school. Then the worry falls upon us to worry about our results, and the next, and the next and the next schools we have to go. At last (yeah right!), we have to worry about getting a job, and the next and the next. I thought I would have emerged out of the hole of worry by now, but apparently not. I really want to live life the simple way, getting up when I want, doing what I want, and then being with who I want. Marissa once said: Burnout is about resentment, and you beat it by knowing what it is that you are giving up that makes you resentful. I think these words are really true. I have been quite unhappy for awhile, and ever since I made that final decision and acted upon it, I really feel much better. Of course it would mean that I will be freer for quite some time to come, just don't over think it for now ;) Oh well, that's a little update about me for now. I must clear my head and think of the correct direction to head soon!

"I didn't want to lose my sense of myself in my profession" - Marissa Mayer

Yup, I feel the same way too.