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My weekends have been good. So far I’ve managed to do loads of stuffs over them, bringing my lil sis to different cool world iconic places, sliding down ice, sliding down ice with a bumper, catching up on some movies (yay!), getting my movie souvenirs, baking & cooking at my sis new house and realizing my cooking art potential, crashing a baby exhibition (I’ve never seen so many pregnant women and mamas gathered at a location and looking so determined to enter a place before! See what discounts can do to people…), witnessing a dog carnival (so many beautiful dogs!), bringing my parents to experience 18 chefs (but didn’t order their zhao pai cheese baked dish -.-), seeing people swing on bars and jumping onto wooden blocks over and over again, and last but not least, eat good food (yum!). They were all so fun, in contrast to my bleak weekdays, except for having the chance to experience a presentation panelled by a lot of big shots, entering a toxic location geared with what I wear to lab normally, experiencing how the neighbour of a burnt unit will look & smell like and having an eerie incident.

 

It's a new week and the last 1.5 week for April. I dunno if I look forward to what will be coming, but I'm glad that I'll have things to do at least for the next 2 weekends!

 

"Don't ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive" - Howard Thurman

Sometimes, its the choices we make in life that determines who we are. Not the circumstances, but the choices we make during those circumstances. So maybe I'm too stupid to notice before, but now I'm slowly fixing the puzzle together and getting the whole picture. Some people get it really easily, but its difficult for me and its something I have to focus to see. Maybe because I'm too blinded by distractions, too blind to see the truth.

Then there are times you realize people make decisions that contradict what they say, and it adds up to the confusion. How much do you give before its enough? Is it fair that they say another is over protected when the next thing they do is to hold up the shield for that person? They chose to give up their own and spend their time on another before complaining to you that they didn't have time for this, nor that. There's so many other people in the same situation, but I don't see them giving what what they like or maybe love for something they complain so much about. Weird huh.

The past few weeks have been tough with a lot of things going on everywhere. I guess I'm those kind of person who likes to handle one thing at a time. We'll be more focused you see. But things just keep coming one after another. People just tell you to learn how to handle it, but nobody's there to teach or guide. How can we progress like that? It's like they want a cake, and they're only providing the dough. No recipe, no specifics. Maybe the people around me are all chefs, but the thing is, I'm not. I don't even come from a baking school.

Anyway, as my boss just said : life goes on no matter what happens. So just have to grit my teeth and move on.

P.S.Goodness, everything seems to be breaking down on me. My laptop's giving me blank, my new com is unable to load so many sites and my tablet just restarts every other waking (sometimes even sleeping) moment. 

It's been a headache for me, but at least I've finally complete what I was supposed to do, albeit a few months behind schedule. And the funny thing is, I'm sorta like the only one panicking. I was told I will be going here, doing this. But thus far, I've done nothing that was told to me before the finalization, and I guess I won't be doing that ever, as clearly indicated on that sheet.

So, what should I do next?

I don't get told what to do after graduation. I have to make my own choices. And I've always made stupid ones. I talk to people, but they change their words. And the consequences end up on me alone. This not good, that not good. But they are thinking in their own shoes, not mine. Sometimes, they just expect too much without being in the same situation. It's really tiring, that everything I want to do seems like a useless thing to do. That everyone should be really good in only one aspect of life and they do that for the rest of the life, but they punish people who wants to learn a little bit of everything. They want a diverse individual, and yet they suffocate them to the predetermined scopes. Worse is when there are the uninvited "educated" pinocchios that poke their noses into everything. Guess even a full education cant teach you everything huh...

Anyways, its the same old rant again because its been the same old same old. Hais, why does life have to be so miserable, why do bad things have to come in combos...

"If you're not making mistakes, then you're not doing anything" - John Woolen

Quite alot of things have been falling into place recently, but the best thing is, I'm pre-occupied. Things seem to be moving forward (I guess). Not that it's 100% good, but at least they're moving and it helps take things off my mind that may be worse, so it's a good thing in a way or two. Not only me, everyone else seems really busy. By choice, or no choice, sometimes it just isn't what I'd like, but it isn't my life so it's definitely not my right. But I know that there are times (many to be exact) where people do not make decision while thinking for anyone else so I guess that's just the way the cookie crumble.

My next week is pretty much planned and plotted, and I'm quite curious what might happen because decisions will have to be made. But on the other subject, time is passing real fast! It's already 2.5 months past the start of the year, and just 8++ more months to my birthday =P

Well, I'm gonna keep this post short and end it with a short quote: "Sometimes, it's just intuition".

So it's true. People make their own choices. No matter who the other person is, they don't make choices for us, and neither for us too.

I miss the movies that can make me entranced for the short hundred over minutes. Movies nowadays are like a brain teaser, makes you think wth they are talking about and how their next sequel is just a money making endeavour. I think divergent should be different though, not as captivating as hunger games but a winner among the movies that are coming soon. Why can't there be more movies like Inception/avatar/monsters inc or storylines as exciting as the harry potter series (this is the best already) or lord of the rings. A lot of the shows are about advanced technology, which is cool, but not that cool when there are 100 other films that uses the same idea. Like minority report was cool, Robocop not so much.

"If you had your chance to change your fate, would you?" - Princess Merida

Today, I met a hypocrite on the way to work. He told me to do some things, which he himself doesn't do it. My first thought was to just laugh over it, then I thought about it, and connected some dots. Yes I realized I "started" a fight with kpo when I decided to ask kpo a question on top of kpo's questions to me -.- Kpo made it seemed like asking the questions was a very very very natural thing to do (well, it's not, it's bossy when you do it, and you're not my boss), and seemed like my question was redundant. But really, I just wanted to know why kpo keeps asking questions about me and I placed a simple 'why' at the end of my answer, which kpo took it as something offensive I guess? WTS. Why can't I ask why am I being asked those questionsss? It's perfectly reasonable mah. If you want to ask so damn many questions then you have to be prepared and be open to answering questions. And I asked only ONE question for goodness sake, and its not a personal question also. Then came the war where kpo gathered friends and within 24 hours, friend number 1 started his attack. I thought he was an okay person, minding his own business while being "attacked" by kpo in their native language. But come to think of it, maybe he likes it. That's why he's being so protective of kpo. Problem is, anything happening between kpo and I, is none of his business. Why so kpo? He can gossip all he wants with kpo but I didn't do anything to him and he definitely only heard kpo's side of story, so WTH does he wants to get involved? Seriously, the phases don't-judge-me-till-you-walked-a-mile-in-my-shoes-or-live-a-day-in-my-life and don't-get-involved-until-you-know-100%-of-the-story works pretty good here. Sometimes, psychology seems like a really interesting subject to study. I understand, that you guys might have nothing better to do. I mean, I'd always asked myself to believe that you have different labs and that days when you'll didn't come, you'll are reporting to your alternate labs (which is potentially BS) and people here know too. Especially so for friend number 1, who finished his experiments loong ago, lives a 15mins walk away, is taking staff salary, occasionally seen around and who tells me about work ethics which he never follow. I would have appreciated the advise from someone who does it too, but not from a hypocrite. Also, for kpo, who appears to only do two regular things here, which is to use the computer to fb/play candy crush and kpo about other people's business. Actually, I don't really care what they do in office and I don't mind them doing whatever they're doing too. BUT, don't come and ka chiao me. I didn't go around poking my nose into your business so please, don't let your noses come over too.

Fun fact: Today, nothing else unusual happened. I haven't seen friend number 1 after I returned from a toilet break (wondered where his work ethics experience came from) and I haven't seen kpo since I came.

Her talk is really interesting, kinda makes me feel that the work still has some hope!

"Imagine...having you on a chip" - Geraldine Hamilton

Valentine's day was just over, and I came back to office filled with questions. "Were you sick last week?" No, I was on leave. "Where did you go?" Home. "Just resting huh." "When is your presentation" (Didn't answer cause I don't have one so I tot she was asking another person) "When is your presentation (looks at me)" I don't have one. "Did he forget about you" Maybe. "Maybe he forgot about you (and gives the you-need-to-go-ask-him-to-appoint-you-a-presentation-slot-asap-look)" Yeah but I asked him before.

 

--- silence cause nth else to sabo ---

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Anyways, time for a nice quote "Humanities' greatest advances are not in its discoveries, but how those discoveries are applied to reduce inequality. Whether through democracy, strong public education, quality health care, or broad economic opportunity, reducing human inequality is the highest human achievement" - Bill Gates



Sometimes in life, of course when you're suay, you get to meet people like this. People who keeps probing about your life, working & private one included. Even when you barely talked with them before, like once or twice? They can use their hide skin to ask questions, and still be so demanding. "What did you have last night? Where did you go? Why did you go?" Well since I still have to see your face everyday for god knows how long, I can't say this directly. But asshole, please get off my back. You're not my boss, not even my mentor. I don't rmb you helping me with anything, except to sprint for the last seat available in the meeting room when we reached the place at the same time. Even what people do over the weekends you also want to chap. Oh please, just go. Go back to where you came from and where you plan to be.

Good times pass really fast! It feels just like CNY eve yesterday, and boom! It's already the 5th day into CNY and work has already begun...and yes, although the visiting intensity has been reduced, but the money depletion is still steadily increasing, and will do so until the last day where it will exponentiate (T.T).

 

Okay so I was told, after tomorrow, I will have loads of stuff to do. Not sure if it's good or bad because I feel like I might need a change, and making any promises now may not seem like a good idea. But what if the decision has to be made tomorrow? Hais, why do I suck at this kind of stuff.

This is a really good video on work, and I feel that it is just as applicable to life. Why do people make life so complicated? Are people who live life the simple way the less sophisticated one? Or maybe they just know how to make the best out of life, to just be content, and to make every second a one less unhappy one. There's very little proper communication nowadays when everyone else is concerned about how they look, who they went out with, where they micro-conquered, and making sure everyone else knows about it. Thing is, most prolly, nobody else really cares and cause they're too preoccupied with updating about themselves. Tsk tsk, what an irony. Anyways, this video also teaches a very good point on karma via a simple feedback concept. People should really get a feel of what they do and how it affects others. Saying is easy, ganging up is easy. But when everything is against you, then you'll slowly realize how hurtful you were. But sadly most people don't think twice about hurting others in the first place, second place, and every other place until the hurt goes a full circle and returns back to them. No empathy.

 

Well I shall end of the post with a very inspirational quote "the real battle is not against competitors. This is rubbish...The real battle is against ourselves..."

It has been quite awhile since I've updated, but I didn't find the time to do so because it has been a busy streak ever since I returned from my trip. Anyway, the trip was good! My first European adventure, my first "white" christmas where christmases originated (sorta), and my first not-in-homeland-nor-on-any-land countdown. I missed the fireworks but I guess it was a decent tradeoff ;)

 

I've always looked forward to Christmas and CNY because its the time where I get to have fun with my relatives and get presents/ang baos too =D And this year is quite special for me because it's the year of my zodiac. In other words, I've lived for 2 cycles. Old liao! But I kinda am still quite excited for it heh heh~

 

Met my friend for lunch today and we chit-chatted alot about our worklife. It's an eye-opener for us and ultimately, its a natural progression for everyone most of us. I really respect people of the older generations. Although they might not have many paper qualifications like alot of us do in this gen, they are still an expert in their own field. I admire their dedication to the job and their unfaltering discipline to work everyday and not succumb to the temptation of taking leave whenever they feel like it, sometimes even when they need it. They really grow to love what they do, and I want to be just like them. Should I take the plunge? Or should I stick with it? Hais, headache.

 

Okay enough of the deep thoughts! Here's an apt quote for the new year just a few days away: "Throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe habour. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover" - Mark Twain

Well, I'm quite pissed off actually. Firstly I wasn't told. Secondly you just let it happen all along. If she didn't tell me, I'd still be doing the same thing the next few years. Evil. The trouble maker all along. Had so many hiccups because of you. Maybe it's a hint for me to leave asap.

There's one more week left for Nov 2013, are you ready for the merriest month of the year yet? I'll always look forward to the last month of the year because it's the time where I don't have to go school, get to have loads of presents*, and also look forward and welcome the new year =)

*subjective

Haha, anyways, I am really glad to be able to do something good today which has been something I've wanted to do for a loong loong time. Feels really good, so I'll encourage all of you who wanted to do something good to strive ahead and at least accomplish it once before the year ends. Once a year isn't too little, but it definitely ain't too much either.

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I used to catch this TV show called the undercover boss, which I think is quite a meaningful show. Here the bosses undergo a makeover and join in their employees to do the task that they hire people to do and observe the things that are going on on the ground level, which is meaningful because one can never understand the situation fully until they step into the shoes of the person they are judging. And best of all, good people gets rewarded for their work and great attitute at the end of the show! So here's one video episode that I really liked and resonated in my heart for quite sometime and henece, I decided to blog it up. It's a special shoutout to the old gentleman who took his time to give back to society and even donate part of his earnings to buy special soaps that is safe even for toddlers to use (well, popeye is a food place so it's important to maintain high sterility, even by customers). But this man's generosity truly deserves recognition and so, this post is for him =)



Was looking at the news of the new Marina Coastal Expressway and I saw this cute little video about the land transportation. Think partly its cuteness comes from the way it is portrayed =) Here it is!

 

Sometimes in life, you only have yourself to hold away the disappointments.